Work Out

I've worked out twice this week!

Feeling great---ok maybe not GREAT. I am happy  to keep up with a regime that I can increase every week. I took a couple of pictures to show progress.

Weekly Goals 2.13

2 3Things

1. Workout 3 x this week for an hour

2. Cook using tomatoes and chicken! Try recipes found here

Tomato Tomata

Chicken Recipes 

3. Focus on LOVE for Valentine's Day, HOPE for my family life and HUMILITY to be the BEST at LOVING others.

Verses on Love

Verses about Humility

Proverbs 10:8
The wise in heart accept commands, but a chattering fool comes to ruin.
Proverbs 28:25-26
A greedy man stirs up dissension, but he who trusts in the LORD will prosper. He who trusts in himself is a fool, but he who walks in wisdom is kept safe.
Mark 9:35
Sitting down, Jesus called the Twelve and said, "If anyone wants to be first, he must be the very last, and the servant of all."

The Look

I like to say that I'm an equal opportunity dater
but there are some individuals who get my attention in a room faster than others--TDH

Superficially I notice:
If he is 5'11+
Smooth chocolate skin
pearly teeth
dressed to impress
not afraid to dance
can sing a tune

Qualities I notice:
he doesn't HAVE to be the center of attention it just may happen naturally
likes children
doesn't act older than he needs to but has a get things done attitude
love for God
supports his family
has a hobby
Likes to talk about different issues
Someone not afraid to love


Things I need him to understand about me:
I'm flaky sometimes
I like texts and calls
I get anxious about big decisions
I am very passionate and sensitive about race and color issues plaguing the US and world
My family may get on my nerves about certain things but at the end of the day what they say means the world to me.
You will meet my mom but she's cool so who wouldn't want to?

To do, to live in order to be

To do, to live in order to be

My mom and I hiking in Boulder

Upon moving to Denver, I realized I was starting to tread in unmarked territory. I could check off a huge life goal and challenge that goes along with coming of age. Living on my own and being self sufficient. I've accomplished the basics. Own apartment, paying for car, handling insurance and working two jobs. I'm so grateful for the opportunity to do all of those things especially in the midst of a recession. I've got a few other goals and desires to fulfill. The cliche things to do before I die list. Why not? My ideas of a well lived life are just a great way to measure what the hell I've been doing while alive! I should make a list of things I've done---well for now my resume and Facebook pictures will do.

Avalanche game

On a Skidoo in Puerto Rico

Bears vs Broncos

First home cooked Thanksgiving meal

 Bucket List:
*sky dive
*climb mountain
*go to Brazil

*go to Africa
*try to golf
*get a phd
*Be trilingual
*have a strong family

*write a book
*go backpacking
*go to a shooting range
*own a gun
*go on a cruise
*Disneyworld/land

On a scooter/moped in Puerto Rico

New York City

Supported Obama

Presented a workshop at Big 12 in Texas

TBH

TBH: To be honest

A silly Facebook acronym. The meaning behind it sincere. To be honest. I pledge to do that for myself. I pledge to be honest to others.

I am starting this TBH effort to rid myself of guilt. Being honest will lead me to the place of comfort and hope I crave.

I'll start simply today: 

I am funny.

I am smart.

I get lazy.

I enjoy being in the presence of people but I enjoy solitude immensely.

I believe I am attractive.

I want to develop a better self understanding.

The idea of family, marriage and relationships perplexes me.

I often wonder how to both fit in and stand out.

I wish I knew more about my Puerto Rican heritage.

I crave African American culture.

I have less than five friends.

I read.

I love movies.

I like to be organized but---it lasts only a little while.

If there was one thing I wish I could do better is let things go---physical, emotion, mental.

I like fashion but have no desire to be caught up in material possessions which is also known as being cheap.

I am upset at the "church" but my love and trust in God is daily on the rise.

I am embracing my youth and love for life and am ready not only to reach my potential but to influence others to do the same.

Verse of the day/week/for awhile: 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

Always be joyful. Always keep on praying. No matter what happens, always be thankful, for this is God's will for you who belong to Christ.

Thief

thief
He stole it.
My heart.
Ripping it from the veins
that were loving another.
There it lies.
In a cooler for him.
For his icebox.
Won't he take it and keep it?

Let it warm him
Protect him
Please him.
Won't he love me?
From what I can see
He and Me will never be.
Be alone
In a room.
I make him stand
He makes me hot
We go through this routine a lot.

Wrong Way

wrong way

Tried other flavors
this much is clear
time with you is limited
so i must savor
our moments of passion
bottled inside is this urgent
desire of ensuring your satisfaction
I come to you an open book
waiting and waiting
to be the one you want
Missing the signs you've written
My smile gives proof of my heart
you know is smitten
Do you think of me like I you?
Asking god for signs to disprove what I know is true.
It hurts. We feel so good.
I mistakenly assumed you knew you had an all access pass to my world
my heart my happiness
Tired of the tears trying to run from my deepest fear
"He's just not that into you"
But you have been in me.
Clouding the view so I can see
Maybe some sleep and a call will ease my sore
heartless i tried not care but no one else can compare
your flavor
give u half
have to have one just in case. earrings, condoms, notes proof
why suck and savor
a sample of the signs im going the wrong way.